Panic in the streets of London

You realize you may not be quite as fine as you thought you were when you simply panic after receiving an invitation to go out. Go out on a date. On a Friday night. From a man. Who has recently confessed a crush on you. Then you just say no, politely. Turn off the msn. Conclude you're not ready for that, you're not supposed to be ready, it's not expected that you cope with this kind of situation now. Why now? Why invite me out now, when I'm this emotional mess, when he knows everything I've been through, when he knows how much I liked that guy. That guy who went away. Back to where he belongs. He's there, I'm here and this guy who invited me out is also here. But I don't want here, I don't want there, I just want to be me again. I just want to get over this.